No, I’m not writing my wedding recaps yet, because that would be admitting that it’s over. I’m not ready to admit that it’s over yet, because, well, read on…
Since February 22, 2011, I have focused on exactly three things.
- Planning the wedding
- Justin’s mom’s passing
- Some family stuff on my side
And before that? It was surviving our long-distance relationship, bouncing in and out of contract jobs, and trying to figure out what direction my life was headed.
Now that I don’t have any of these things going on, I’m a little lost. I’ve become so accustomed to overcoming the stress of what has been my everyday life, that I don’t really know how to function now that things are good.
And when I say good? I mean practically perfect! Seriously, things could not be better right now. I’m learning what it means to be a wife and have a husband. I’m embracing the subtle changes that are happening between Justin and I, as we transition into those roles. I’m taking in every moment and for the first time, I’m not so wrapped up in the next big thing. (And yes, that means I’m letting us take some time for ourselves before rushing to have a baby, contrary to what I’ve always thought I would want!)
In the grand scheme of things, I’m finally content, and it’s so, so comfortable. But, this is uncharted territory for me. While we were laying by the pool in St. Lucia, I turned to Justin and asked him what I’m supposed to do, now that I don’t have anything to plan for or worry about. His response, of course, was “Why don’t you try to just relax for a change? Let’s see how that works for you.”
But, you guys? I’m TERRIBLE at relaxing. I need to be on the go and keeping myself busy. Even though I’m no longer looking ahead to something big, I’m still in desperate need of some little stuff.
I was supposed to start web design classes this month, but AiP changed the curriculum, and now I don’t start til October. I’m still really excited about it, but what am I supposed to do til October?
Fortunately, I have come up with a couple of things I’d like to start filling my time with. For one, we’ve been making some progress at the house, which I’ll post about soon! I’m super excited about some of the stuff we’ve brought in, and I want to keep making it feel like our home! Secondly, I’m really hoping to start putting together my Project Life binder. This requires me to take more pictures, so I’m anxious to jump into that, now that I actually have time to get better at using my camera!
One more thing I’d like to work on, is that I’m finding myself in a bit of a blogging rut, and I’m searching for some motivation to snap out of it! Other than wedding recaps, I’ve been at a loss for what to write. Hopefully getting back into my 52 Weeks series will help push me forward!
Along with that, I’m debating on what to do with JutandLinds. I’m considering shutting it down, and just pulling the house update posts over here. I really want to document everything we’re doing, I’m just not sure I want a whole separate venue for it.
What do you do when you have downtime? Any suggestions for breaking a blogging rut? Would you be interested in reading those house update posts? Or should I leave them separated?