When I moved back in with my parents last year, I gained over 10 pounds in about 11 months and it has been a huge issue for me. For one, I feel terrible all the time. I have no energy ever, feeling exhausted constantly. I feel uncomfortable in every article of clothing I own and can’t afford/refuse to succomb to buying a whole new wardrobe. Worst of all, my cholestoral is still way higher than it should be, and continues rising everytime I have it checked. The background in my family history shows that if I allow myself to continue gaining, it’s going to be a bigger problem than I can handle someday.
When I moved back to Pittsburgh, I immediately tried taking back control over my body. Justin makes me eat better. He makes me try new, healthy foods I wouldn’t have dreamed of eating before. He packs my lunch and actually counts the number of pretzel nubs in a serving so I don’t eat too many but still curb my salt cravings. I started to drink water instead of pop and ate greek yogurt instead of sugary cereals. I even gave up red meat for lent and have only occasionally ate it since. I even started remembering to take all my vitamins.
He got me into the gym at least 2 days a week, every week, for months. He taught me how to use the machines and lift the right amount of weight to tone without over-building my muscles. We started a 10K training program to get me moving again, and I felt SO GOOD after every workout.
BUT then I would come home, step on the scale, and everyday it was the same. The number.never.changed. And worse than a number, I didn’t feel any better. I got frustrated. I lost all motivation. I didn’t see the point of eating all this food that I don’t find satisfying, and making my body push through these workouts, just to see no results.
A month ago I quit going to the gym, and I will absolutely admit, I have not missed it one bit.
I will also admit, though, that I feel worse than ever. Completely physically and mentally drained. I’ve reached my breaking point.
With Justin helping me, I’ve decided to make June my month. My month to turn it all around and do whatever it takes to feel good again. How many days do they say it takes to start a new habit? I’m giving myself 30. Thirty days of counting every calorie. Of doing yoga every single Tuesday, and sometimes on Saturday too. Of lifting or running or both every Monday, Wednesday, and Friday (or Thursday if we have weekend plans). I’m starting over on my 10K training, and committing to finishing it out this time.
June is MY month. And I’m gonna kick it in the ass.
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Boy do I hear you! I got really diligent and lost 10 lbs in November/December (over the holidays!) and have since gained it all back and then some :(. I’ve also committed to making June the month I get back down to it, so feel free to get in touch if you need motivation or accountability!
I’ve actually had a few people tell me they’re doing this in June, so it’s good to have a group of us working together! You can get in touch with me too, if you need anything :)