i’ve.been.inspired.

I know I’ve been kind of MIA for a while, and I’m sorry to anyone who actually stops by to read this. I guess I’ve had a lot of stuff on my mind, and wasn’t sure how to put it into words, but I finally forced myself to just sit down and start typing.

I’ve been inspired. I’ve been inspired by Rachel, who wrote this. Thank you Rachel, for writing exactly what I needed to read, at exactly the right moment in my life.

I want to choose today, September 14, 2009, as the beginning of my epic-ness. I want things to be better. I want to believe that life doesn’t have to suck if you don’t let it. I want Justin and I to finally be able to say something good happened to us because we deserved it, instead of always feeling like something bad happened to us because “that’s just how things go for us”. It’s time for me to force myself to think positively, and know that I’m living my life in a way that I am proud of. In a way that makes me happy. It’s time for me to realize that what happened at my old job was wrong, and I did the right thing by leaving, even if no one believes my side of the story. It’s time for me to stop focusing on the hell of the last seven months, and push forward knowing that I am loved, and that things are better now, even if it was overwhelmingly hard to get here.

So this is it. The first day of my year of epic-ness. The day I start the next chapter of my life. I’m not expecting it to be easy, but I sure hope it’s worth it.